I still get a lot of questions on this topic and I thought I would take a couple of minutes to share my
experience with you.
It’s been over 4½ years since my journey began. For me it all began with the book the Secret. I had been attracted to this book by changes I had seen in a co-worker. I was very skeptical yet I knew one thing and that was my life “sucked”.
I read that ...book several times, and I found that as great as it was it also left me hungry for more answers. I began searching for other authors and began doing the exercise’s suggested in their books. I was a student…..I needed to learn to get to know WHO I WAS?
My journey to self-discovery was not easy. Change did not happen overnight and honestly, I still had many tears to cry throughout this journey. I found that getting clear meant facing the ugly truth, my demons. I would have to face them, identify and challenge them. I had to become strong when I felt weak. How did I do this? I was determined. I knew my life needed to change and I knew there was nothing good waiting for me if I turned back. I had only one direction and that was forward.
It took 3½ years for my first transformation to occur. I had wanted to die, I wanted to be released from my torture yet in my darkest moments I found GOD. I found myself, I felt hope and I felt his mercy. For some, GOD does not exist, however in my life he is part of my journey. Transformation to me was like a flip of a switch, one moment my room was dark and the other there was light. I could see what had always been there before me and I could understand that which was not clear to me. It was like I had woken up from a bad dream with a purpose. I did not have all the answers and yet I was not afraid…..it felt as if I were in control of my life for the first time.. I knew in my heart that as long as I continued pushing forward the answers I needed would be made clear to me.
One thing I want to make clear to anyone looking to embark on their own journey or to anyone already in this process, it is not easy. You will be challenged and you will feel fear. Yet this is the most magnificent journey of your life. You will discover the greatness in you. Therefore hang on to this bumpy ride because it is well worth it.
I have been in this journey for over 4 years and there are days I wake up with fear, doubts and challenges. Yet I also wake up with determination and faith thus I challenge those negative feelings. I say “BRING IT ON”. You see in my mind, my God did not give me fear, thus that must be the enemy. If the enemy wants to hold me back, well then he must be prepared to work Overtime, cause this girl is not backing down. I am in this journey to win, not to be held back or defined by others or by events.
Recently I have experienced my second transformation in which I made life changing decisions. When I look back I remember not having the courage and now I look and think “how could I not have the courage”. We are here to fulfill a purpose in life, therefore we need to get clear on what that is. We need to be able to achieve it and we need to strive to become the best version of ourselves as possible.
I am a work in progress and this journey of 4½ years is still getting started. I am open to change and I am welcome to getting to learn everything about me. I am open to working and learning from others and helping them too find their glimpse of hope. I have learned that this is what fulfills me. There is no amount of money in the world that can compete with the feeling of knowing I can help someone find hope, courage and the will to move forward.
Don’t ever give up on yourself, you are here for a reason and the faster you get clear the faster you will be living the life meant for you.
It’s been over 4½ years since my journey began. For me it all began with the book the Secret. I had been attracted to this book by changes I had seen in a co-worker. I was very skeptical yet I knew one thing and that was my life “sucked”.
I read that ...book several times, and I found that as great as it was it also left me hungry for more answers. I began searching for other authors and began doing the exercise’s suggested in their books. I was a student…..I needed to learn to get to know WHO I WAS?
My journey to self-discovery was not easy. Change did not happen overnight and honestly, I still had many tears to cry throughout this journey. I found that getting clear meant facing the ugly truth, my demons. I would have to face them, identify and challenge them. I had to become strong when I felt weak. How did I do this? I was determined. I knew my life needed to change and I knew there was nothing good waiting for me if I turned back. I had only one direction and that was forward.
It took 3½ years for my first transformation to occur. I had wanted to die, I wanted to be released from my torture yet in my darkest moments I found GOD. I found myself, I felt hope and I felt his mercy. For some, GOD does not exist, however in my life he is part of my journey. Transformation to me was like a flip of a switch, one moment my room was dark and the other there was light. I could see what had always been there before me and I could understand that which was not clear to me. It was like I had woken up from a bad dream with a purpose. I did not have all the answers and yet I was not afraid…..it felt as if I were in control of my life for the first time.. I knew in my heart that as long as I continued pushing forward the answers I needed would be made clear to me.
One thing I want to make clear to anyone looking to embark on their own journey or to anyone already in this process, it is not easy. You will be challenged and you will feel fear. Yet this is the most magnificent journey of your life. You will discover the greatness in you. Therefore hang on to this bumpy ride because it is well worth it.
I have been in this journey for over 4 years and there are days I wake up with fear, doubts and challenges. Yet I also wake up with determination and faith thus I challenge those negative feelings. I say “BRING IT ON”. You see in my mind, my God did not give me fear, thus that must be the enemy. If the enemy wants to hold me back, well then he must be prepared to work Overtime, cause this girl is not backing down. I am in this journey to win, not to be held back or defined by others or by events.
Recently I have experienced my second transformation in which I made life changing decisions. When I look back I remember not having the courage and now I look and think “how could I not have the courage”. We are here to fulfill a purpose in life, therefore we need to get clear on what that is. We need to be able to achieve it and we need to strive to become the best version of ourselves as possible.
I am a work in progress and this journey of 4½ years is still getting started. I am open to change and I am welcome to getting to learn everything about me. I am open to working and learning from others and helping them too find their glimpse of hope. I have learned that this is what fulfills me. There is no amount of money in the world that can compete with the feeling of knowing I can help someone find hope, courage and the will to move forward.
Don’t ever give up on yourself, you are here for a reason and the faster you get clear the faster you will be living the life meant for you.
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